I’ve figured out what I desire most from life.
Time to contemplate, read, create, and share.
Today is the first day in a long time when I’ve had a chance to do just that. The rain has made the road impassable and there’s nothing to do except catch up on chores at home and indulge in my unexpected gift of free time.
All the tightening of screws going on around me is making me prioritize what I desire most out of my daily life, and that’s led to considering short-term and long-term goals and how to attain them even under duress.
What I desire most isn’t a thing, or a specific place, or anything physical at all. It’s possibly not something everyone would want. In fact, there are a lot of people who would *hate* being cast into the scenario of living my dream life.
Contemplating is important to me. I love to daydream, think up projects, imagine how they’d appear completed or at least underway. During contemplation is where my best ideas arise, leading to some of my best stories.
Reading is not just a form of escape, it’s also research. Actually, I read to escape far less often than for planning and researching. How to construct a scene in a story, how to build a project I have in mind, what plants do what sort of useful things in our bodies as medicines, etc.
Creating is where the boots hit the ground. Action. Stuff gets done. Plans are carried out and dreams are fulfilled. Hands-on and wonderfully exhausted by the end of the day stretched out or piled up in a tired heap on the cold tile floors resting up enough to get to the tub.
Gardens built and tended, food harvested and prepared, medicines rendered from plants gathered, art created, stories told and written. *Home* is created this way … and all these things are the physical results of what time means to me.
Sometimes creating isn’t physically exhausting, though. Sometimes its mentally stimulating, especially if I’m creating art or stories. I get lost in the creative process and emerge to see that days have gone by without notice when the zone is really insulated. This kind of uninterrupted time is extremely rare and treasured. I’d love to have more of it.
I’m not greedy with my plans, thoughts, informational finds, or creations. I love to share with family, friends and cohorts and that completes the circuit because in the sharing new ideas are formulated and a new cycle begins.